Where did I get it wrong? The phrase rang through my head like a bad pop song on repeat. There comes a point when, if everything you’re doing is wrong, then there must be something wrong with the narrative you’re nurturing. As in wrong to tear yourself to bits for trying to be whole. As in wrong for beating yourself into submission to tasks that aren’t going to give you what you need until you give yourself a break. As in wrong to believe that you can’t possibly be doing something right. As in wrong to not ask yourself “what’s wrong?” in a way that implies the question “where does it hurt?”.

This weeks begins with a type-A energy. Actually, we’ve been stewing in the sensation that everything has to get done - perfectly, and that there’s no way to accomplish it all - since Mars joined Saturn early last week. Reports are that friends feel spread thin as they wonder about wealth in all the tiny, hard-to-reach places. I’m hearing disclosures of closures without us even coming close to calm enough to have a conversation. If our fight is founded in fear of getting burned by someone who might outshine us, then our ability to dazzle each other becomes dim and grim. I can't help but consider, if we take a step back to look at who we’re really battling, perhaps we’ll get an opportunity to break bread with our brethren. And if we’re already burnt out and triggered by the news, perhaps we can extend a heart and hand and make nice with our neighbors. And then, perhaps the next time one of us is in danger, we’ll have a safe number to call that cultivates our power to uplift instead of struggle, to shift consciousness instead of shoot, to sort it out ourselves without involving a strict system that’s struck up a vicious cycle of teaching terror instead of tools.

The Four of Pentacles symbolizes the secret sauce we are determined would solve all of our issues if we could just concoct the perfect prescription. Little do we realize we’re often producing the problem during a frantic investigation of every external factor that will definitely not help us get rich, get safe or get gifted a miracle. It is evidence that the feeling better will give us a buzz when we fix the fuse to ourselves. It rights our wrongs by putting some self-respect into our reasoning when we act ourselves into right thinking rather than trying to think ourselves into doing something we just don’t want to do. When we understand our fear, then we stop fumbling over missed connections that didn’t make the cut. When we clarify that fear is a construct, we can savor the synchronicity that’s sending us signals if we would just commit to seeing them. The Four of Pentacles reminds us of the strength in the relationship between mind and matter; in our ability to determine what kind of behavior we value over the gains of the game. Strength which comes from faith over fear. Faith in the energetic charge searching the psyche for synchronicity to break through the barriers of our burdens. In other words, if you’re calling for help and not getting an answer, hang up and dial different number. Try your own, try spirit’s, try a friend and try to see the sweetness in the signs from the other line.

WHAT EVEN IS A TAROTSCOPE? We often think of horoscopes as predictions that are specific to each astrological sign. In Ancient Greek, the term horoscope simply means "I watch the hour." To astrologers today, a horoscope is a chart that maps the planetary bodies in the sky. From this chart, we derive meaning that can influence how we work with energy. Regardless of our unique individual charts, we are ALL working with the same energy from above. Each week, I examine this energy, pull a tarot card and write a guided meditation with the collective in mind. My tarotscopes are meant to be read as inspiration. Please note that because we are all operating with our individual energy, some elements will resonate more than others. Take what you like and leave the rest. Tarotscopes are offered freely in an effort to cultivate collective healing. I am always grateful for your support in sharing this work with anyone you think it might help. If you are inspired or find support here, please consider making a donation to help sustain these weekly offerings.