There is a relief that accompanies releasing our grief around anything that isn’t working. A purifying that happens when the rains come in. A softening of the shoulders and back of the neck. Sore knots in our throats give way to wells in our eyes followed by the quick but gentle stroke of tears along cheeks. 

When we suppress or restrain our disappointment, energy gets stuck. Sorrow comes out sideways, fights with frustration, even anger, striking those we never meant to hurt. Often, would-be witnesses to our true process will hold our grief with us if we let them. There is a difference between holding and trying to fix. This week, if you are a witness to another’s disappointment, remember that you don’t have to do anything. Arguably, the practice of seeing - of truly hearing what another is saying - is enough to help them allow it for themselves. It is in our nature to repair, much less so to accept.

The Five of Cups is an exercise in welcoming our own sadness when things don’t turn out the way we thought or wanted. The Five will help us with disillusion, but it will not dismiss our disappointment. Rather, it nods its head to the idea that sometimes, we get to be upset. We don’t even have to be rational. True that in one extreme, the Five of Cups can be a card of depression. But the tarot does not offer fixed situations - it presents us with choices of how to use what is right here in front of us. 

As the New Moon in Aquarius waxes into Pisces, our feelings will come to the forefront. Dreams are quickly divined and swiftly lost. Like a powerful rain that floods in a drought, they might leave some destruction but the earth still desperately needed the water. Hold onto the core of your dreams and re-divine them.

I once had a hard conversation with my mother in which I shared a deep piece of myself and my future ideas. Her response was “honestly, it’s not what I want for you.” Years later, having arrived at many of my own projected reasons for this answer, I asked her about it. She said that it wasn’t one of her finer replies in the moment but it was that simple. No reason other than it truly wasn’t what she wanted; wasn’t what she had dreamed. Then she said “but that doesn’t mean there can’t be other dreams that are just as beautiful.”

The second reply, not the sting but the salve, is the one I remember most.

This week, we can be willing to look at empty cups. We must admit regret in order to realize the clean slate presented to us. To see something new, we have to truly let go of the old. We have to love it, let ourselves feel abandoned by it, thank it, embrace it, then pull back our arms and open our hands to whatever is offered next because it might be just that beautiful or better.

WHAT EVEN IS A TAROTSCOPE? We often think of horoscopes as predictions that are specific to each astrological sign. In Ancient Greek, the term horoscope simply means "I watch the hour." To astrologers today, a horoscope is a chart that maps the planetary bodies in the sky. From this chart, we derive meaning that can influence how we work with energy. Regardless of our unique individual charts, we are ALL working with the same energy from above. Each week, I examine this energy, pull a tarot card and write a guided meditation with the collective in mind. My tarotscopes are meant to be read as inspiration. Please note that because we are all operating with our individual energy, some elements will resonate more than others. Take what you like and leave the rest. Tarotscopes are offered freely in an effort to cultivate collective healing. I am always grateful for your support in sharing this work with anyone you think it might help. If you are inspired or find support here, please consider making a donation to help sustain these weekly offerings.